What motivates you? Is it money? Is it love? Is it passion? Is it the desire to get better? Is it pure enjoyment?
Lately I feel that nothing is motivating me or inspiring me. Everything is bland and basic. Nothing is challenging for me. I have pretty good friends, but no one is particularly exciting or interesting. I have no lovers that make me swoon. I have no hobbies that keep me awake at night. I am not participating in anything spiritual or intellectual that is larger than my self. I do not feel particularly connected to a group or an entity. I am just floating…..
I am not unhappy. For the first time in a long time I can say that without having to wonder. I am not depressed or overly anxious. I am very much content with what I have and who I am, the path that I am on and the steps taken to get there. I am just not terribly excited about anything….
What is more unsettling to me is that I do not know what will motivate me. For the first time in a long time, I have no aspiration. I have done all that I have desired to do. Gone to school, made major purchases, seen the world.... I've done it all, at least, all that can be quantified. Of course, there is so much more. But what is that more…. Everything else is more conceptual (fall in love, produce something great, just grow and share myself)….
So, what should I do to shake myself out of this place?
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